I recently had a living lesson in the importance of forgiveness. Forgiveness doesn't just break the chain of past hurts and allow us to live free, it also breaks the chain of effect for our children and their children.
My grandmother on my mother's side is a beautiful person: strong, smart, and generous. I have great memories of her from childhood. She was a fun and loving, if tough, presence in our lives who had us over for sleepovers, took us on adventures, spoiled us with treats we didn't get at home, brought bags of Christmas and birthday presents, and hugged and kissed us. She would, and does, do anything to help those she loves.
She had to overcome a lot to become the person she is. My grandmother grew up in an alcoholic, loveless family. Both of her parents drank too much. Her mother eventually committed suicide. She began dating my grandfather at the age of 14, and at 18 married him although he had already cheated on her. After three children, she realized that his alcoholic abuse was affecting them, and left him when my mother, the youngest of three, was a small child.
Her younger sister, my great-aunt, was killed as a teenager by a drunk driver. Her second husband cheated on her, resulting in another divorce. More recently, her oldest son was killed in a tragic accident.
Thankfully, she's now married to a good man who treats her well, and has enjoyed a stable and happy life for many years. However, when we talk, the conversation always ends up turning to her parents, her first husband, and her son's widow. Over and over, I hear recounted the hurts and the wrongs done to her by these people. For her, those people and events aren't in the past; they're still very much present, even though most of them happened decades ago and most of the people involved are dead.
Recently I listened as my mother recounted her hurt and pain from the abandonment by her father. She grew up with him uninvolved in her life, focused on raising his second family with his new wife. She lamented how she wondered growing up “Why doesn't he love me?” and how she realized, in her early 30s, that he was never going to be the father she longed for him to be. Her son, my brother, has left his wife and two children for another woman, and for my mother the pain is particularly potent because it reminds her powerfully of what her father did.
Three generations. And who knows how many generations before that. Hurt and pain that are still alive. Events and people which are not in the past, although chronologically they are, but very much present and still affecting the lives of those who went through them. Events whose unresolved effects were propagated in turn on my generation.
It underlined for me personally the absolutely vitality of forgiveness. Despite how counterintuitive it is, it's literally the only way to break the chain of hurt, pain, and wrong, and live free of events and people of the past, not only for yourself but also for the next generation.
These people are long dead, these events long past. But their effects are just as strong for my grandmother and my mother. They speak of my grandfather, in particular, with a bitterness that remains fresh five decades after he left them.
My mother and grandmother, along with most of us who experience significant hurt, could not control what happened to them. The actions of others are never under our power. But the blessed news is that forgiveness is. We have the capability to choose it, and to experience its amazing healing power, no matter how terrible what was done to us was, nor how long ago. Forgiveness breaks the chain of past hurts. It sets you free from the people who hurt you, and their actions. It allows you to live in the present and hope for the future. And not only is it vitally important for you, it's absolutely vital for any children you may have. The hurts and resentments you carry, whether you intend them to or not, affect those small people as well, infecting the next generation like a vicious, contagious disease. And on and on it goes, until someone breaks the cycle.
We've all seen, or experienced, cycles of dysfunction being repeated generation after generation in the same family, like a tired, horrible film being looped again and again. Whether we like it or not, the pain that we carry ends up affecting the children under our care, unless it is dealt with. And the only way of truly resolving the pain of the past, of leaving it behind, and moving forward to health and wholeness, is forgiveness.
I'm not saying the person who forgives will end up completely unaffected by what happened to them. We are all shaped by our past. But those events and those people no longer need to have power over us. We can have the ability, by God's grace, to make better choices, to elect mercy, love, patience, and grace, in place of bitterness, anger, resentment, and revenge. We can break the cycle not only for ourselves, but for the next generation in our care.Comments: 0
Can men and women ever really be “just friends”? It's a never-ending question, one that I'd like to consider in light of living as a Christian single.
If you poll most of the world, the answer to that question would be “no”. A friend of the opposite sex, if you believe pop culture, is someone you have slept with, will sleep with, want to sleep with, or will end up in a romantic relationship with once something happens to make you realize you're meant to be together. Real friendship with someone of the opposite sex is only possible if one of you is gay. Otherwise, friendship is simply romance disguised.
In Christian culture, due to the emphasis on marriage, it's not much different. It's generally assumed that if a single man and woman spend time together and enjoy each others' company, they must be (or should be) romantically interested. (I should note that I'm speaking in this post mainly about opposite-sex friendships between singles, not between marrieds or marrieds and singles).
I believe this attitude, both in the church and in the world, rises from a cultural change which has put romantic relationships in primary place, and devalued “mere” friendship. Romances are more exciting, more valuable, more worthwhile. Friendship is the inferior second prize if you can't achieve romance. However, the friendship can become really valuable if and when it translates itself to romance.
This cultural change has had a lot of effects, but I believe one is that we've largely lost the concept of platonic, affectionate, supportive friendships between men and women.
In the world outside the church, this confusion came as a result of the sexual revolution. Instead of clearly delineated markers between friends and romantic partners/spouses, anyone became a potential sexual partner, muddying the waters significantly. After all, if you can have sex with your friend, why settle for less?
I recently was confused by a conversation with a non-Christian friend. He was relating to me how he'd been taking a “friend” out, hoping the relationship would turn into something more. One day, he told me they had finally kissed. “So is she your girlfriend now?” I asked him. He was astonished and amused. No, he didn't want a “relationship”. He just wanted someone to go out with and be intimate with, without any of the bother of a serious relationship or labelling her his girlfriend. Unsurprisingly, they parted ways not long after. She wanted an actual relationship, not to be called a friend while being asked to give the benefits of a girlfriend.
In the church, as I said before, it's not much different. When was the last time you heard a sermon on friendship? If I tell you that my pastor preached a sermon on relationships, what would you immediately think? Marriage or dating, of course.
Marriage is the norm, and it's expected that if a single man and woman get along well, they are or should be considering marriage. Please note that I am in no way saying that they should not. Friendship is the best way to start a marriage relationship. If you find yourself enjoying someone's company, you're compatible in your faith, personalities, and goals, and there are no obstacles, then by all means pursue God and the counsel of others to begin a relationship if you both desire.
However, whether or not we eventually marry, the vast majority of people we relate to, both in and outside the church, are not going to become our spouse. We usually know people of the opposite sex with whom we get along well and whose company we enjoy, but for one reason or another a more-than-friends relationship is not possible. Singleness is the reality for many in the church, and increasingly, those who do marry do so later in life. We miss out on a huge potential for spiritual and emotional support, enjoyment, and personal growth if we are only able to see members of the opposite sex as potential or rejected romantic partners, rather than as our brothers and sisters in Christ.
Paul's pastoral counsel to Timothy was to treat “the younger women as sisters, in all purity” (1 Timothy 5:2). I believe this is a good guideline for all of us, both men and women.
Personally speaking, for a long time I viewed single Christian males that I was interested in purely as romantic prospects. I was fine being friends with those I wasn't interested in (although some of them were interested in me). But I fell into a series of unrequited, and sometimes quite painful, crushes on men who didn't return my feelings.
As I've gotten older and none of those crushes materialized into something substantial, as I've realized singleness may well be for a lifetime, and as I've (hopefully) matured, I've come to see the very real beauty in being able to see, value, and appreciate someone simply for who they are, rather than as a romantic prospect. I've come to understand the joy of being able to be grateful for the positive blessing of their friendship, rather than being bitter and disappointed about something I don't have with them.
One of those attitudes looks at the other person primarily for how they could benefit me. The other loves them as a brother in Christ Jesus for exactly who they are. One thinks about how they could change to fit me, or to want me. The other gives thanks for their unique beauty and accepts them where they are. One robs from my life in disappointment over what I lack. The other adds to my life immensely as I enjoy the loveliness of each different personality, each different set of experiences, each unique way my life is enriched by each person. Instead of expecting one person to be “everything” to me, I enjoy the myriad of ways each friendship contributes to my life, without needing it to be more.
I may never marry. Or I may. Only God knows. But either way, my life will have been infinitely the richer for the very precious gift of friendship. I believe friendships with the opposite sex can benefit us in ways friendship with the same sex can't. God created man and woman to complement one another, and we're enriched by the differences between us in every relationship, not just marriage. The platonic affection and positive regard of our male friends can be a needed emotional support for those who don't have a spouse to lean on.
Obviously there are potential pitfalls to friendships between men and women, which are beyond the scope of this blog post. However, if we can begin by viewing our brothers and sisters in Christ primarily as that, and secondarily, if at all, as potential romantic partners; if we can honour one another and relate to one another in purity and affection; if we can provide friendship and support without secretly expecting something more; I believe we'll be well on our way to healthier, more God-honouring relationships and the surprising blessing of friendship.Comments: 0
Lately I have been thinking about just how quickly life passes. Days seem to fly by in the blink of an eye. It feels like I have scarcely gotten up in the morning when I am lying down again to sleep at night. Apparently, our perception of time speeds up as we get older, and this is certainly true for me. It feels like life is a roller coaster which has been gradually building speed and is now rocketing down hills and around turns at whiplash-inducing velocity.
In your childhood, teens, and 20s, life is something you look forward to. You look forward to learning to drive, leaving home, going to university, graduating, getting married, finding a job, having kids—whatever. Life is a grand adventure that lies before you, and anything is possible. As you move past some of these milestones (or remain waiting for some of them); as life throws you curveballs you didn't expect; as you didn't turn out to be the world-changer you thought you'd be: you start to realize: this is it. Life is not something that lies ahead, it's happening every moment. Every day. Each choice, each action, each moment forms part of your life, which increasingly lies behind rather than ahead.
It can be a bit frightening. I don't know how people without Jesus and without the hope of eternal life cope with it. All that's left is to seek to forget the reality of your own mortality, and to squeeze out of life every ounce of enjoyment you can. Plastic surgery, food and drink, relationships, vacations, alcohol, workaholism—whatever your pleasure of choice is, you seek to extract the maximum out of it in a bid to ignore the rapid passing of time, the inevitability of death, and the frightening uncertainty of what awaits beyond. After all, if this life is all there is, why not “eat, drink, and be merry, for tomorrow we die?”
The writers of the Old Testament well understood the brief and fleeting nature of human life. It's a theme that crops up over and over again:
“The years of our life are seventy,
or even by reason of strength eighty;
yet their span is but toil and trouble;
they are soon gone, and we fly away.” (Psalm 90:10)
Job laments it in a beautifully unforgettable image:
My days are swifter than a weaver's shuttle
and come to their end without hope. (Job 7:6)
And a poetic image from another psalm:
As for man, his days are like grass;
he flourishes like a flower of the field;
for the wind passes over it, and it is gone,
and its place knows it no more. (Psalm 103:15-16)
In the face of the brevity of life and the inevitability of death, how should we live? That's a question I've increasingly thought about in the past couple of years or so. I'm relatively young, but at the same time, I recognize I have to make life count. It's the only one I'll get. I can't start to think about death and how I want to live in light of it someday: this is my someday.
This is the question that preoccupied the writer of Ecclesiastes. Every time I read Ecclesiastes, I am astonished by its relevance, although it was written thousands of years ago. The writer struggled with what I suppose today would be called existential angst: if we're all going to die anyway, isn't everything futile? What's the point of pleasure or of wisdom, if life just ends up the same? How best to live in the light of death?
I recommend you read the book if you haven't already, but his conclusion is this:
The end of the matter; all has been heard. Fear God and keep his commandments, for this is the whole duty of man. For God will bring every deed into judgment, with every secret thing, whether good or evil. (Ecclesiastes 12:13-14)
As a summary, I think that's a pretty apt one. I want to look back on my life with no regrets. I'm far from living life to the maximum I should, but here are some thoughts I'm increasingly realizing can guide me:
This moment, right now, this hour, this day, this week: this is what you've got. This IS your life. Don't wait for some point in the future or some thing to happen to begin living life the way you know that you should. Each moment, each hour, each choice of how to spend time: these are the bricks that make up the building of your life. Choose wisely now.
In light of the brevity of life and of God's judgement, don't put off dealing with sin or the damage of your past. Don't think that “someday” you'll change or “someday” you'll seek healing. Do it now. You don't know how much time you have left. You are building your life, for good or for bad, right now.
Mend relationships. Forgive people. Seek forgiveness from those you've wronged. Put things right. Pick up that phone and call. Tell that person that you love how much they mean to you, and why. Share the gospel with that friend you've been praying for. You don't know when they'll be gone, or you will, and it will be too late. “If possible, so far as it depends on you, live peaceably with all.” (Romans 12:18)
Love extravagantly. Live generously. Don't hoard time, compliments, resources, money, effort. Don't make comfort and well-being your primary goal. Take that mission trip. Give time and money to causes you care about, sacrificially if necessary.
Do you really need to buy that new piece of clothing or game or whatever? You can't take it with you. Don't be fooled into thinking that the abundance of your possessions indicates the quality of your life (Luke 12:15). Live simply and freely and have more to share with those in need.
If you know God is calling you to something, do it. Don't hesitate. Don't put it off.
Take risks. Be bold. Step out in faith. If there's something God has put in your heart, take the steps to do it, even if it seems risky. Trust that the “everlasting arms” will be there to hold you.
Don't live with regret for what you don't have. Don't wait for something to arrive in your life to begin really living. You are living now. Do you want to look back at months and years wasted living in discontentment over something you had no control over? Be joyful knowing that your real inheritance is in heaven and that this life, and what you didn't have, is only for a brief moment.
What are some thoughts you have about how to live life well in the face of death?Comments: 0
Recently I came across a very interesting blog called “A Skeptic's Journey Through the Bible”. The author's mission statement is this: “Growing up a believer, I left my faith in my teens. Now that I’m at the age of starting a family of my own, I need to know in which direction to guide them. I’ve decided to document my journey through the entire Bible with my own questions and commentary in order to decide once and for all if this is for me.”
It's an interesting concept, and I'm curious to see where he ends up when he's done. One post on the blog particularly intrigued me. It's a response to a question from a reader which asks:
“Did you just realize the flaws in religion when you read the bible or did you just ignore them as a Christian?”
The author's answer:
My doubts mostly floated to the surface when I began reading the Bible. While I was a genuine believer, I thought it was so hypocritical that so many millions of people claim Christianity as their religion (and allow what they think it is to affect their decision making in a lot of serious ways) when a lot of them have never read more than a few verses in the book which they believe their God wrote for them. I decided I wanted to have a closer relationship with God by reading the Bible, and when I did, I immediately began seeing a lot of things that I didn’t agree with. I realized that God is not the sugarcoated god they teach you about in Church. I think that would be when the real veil came off my eyes as far as the flaws in religion go.
This struck me as profoundly true, although he's coming from a sceptical, and I from a believing, standpoint. It fits perfectly with my experience of many churches and many Christians.
Churches rarely preach through the entire Bible. Instead, pastors tend to focus on verses that they like. Instead of getting “the whole counsel of God” (Acts 20:27) believers get a limited selection of the passages that appeal to the particular personality, interests, and hobby horses of their pastor or leadership. Certain denominations and movements have particular focuses that they home in on to the exclusion of others. Pastors often don't preach on topics they fear will alienate people.
In many churches I've attended the subject preached on, week in and week out, is the grace and the love of God. Difficult passages of Scripture, and subjects such as sin, judgement, hell, and repentance, are avoided almost completely. The message ends up being: no matter what you do, God accepts you anyway. That's dangerous because it's only partially true. In my observation, it produces a weak group of “Christians” who look almost exactly like the world. For example, it's more common for the young Christians I know to have sex outside of marriage than follow the biblical standard of celibacy. Christians' viewpoints on many topics seem to be shaped more by the culture around them than by God's word.
What struck me most strongly is this sentence: “I realized that God is not the sugarcoated god they teach you about in Church.” I could not agree more. When you actually read the Bible, God is awe-inspiring. He promises he will judge sin, including that of those inside the church. He issues strong warnings to repent. He disciplines us. He allows people to get sick and even die in response to their sin. He says certain behaviours mean that someone is outside of the kingdom of God. None of these things negate the grace and love of God, thankfully. But they're part of the whole picture. He's the kind of God who, if he were to show up in church, would probably make many of us uncomfortable.
Timothy Keller says it brilliantly: “If your god never disagrees with you, you might just be worshiping an idealized version of yourself.”
I believe the danger is that many, many people who sit in church week in and week out and never hear anything which challenges or offends them, who say they are Christians but live almost exactly like the world, are likely deceived. When confronted with some of the more challenging teachings of Scripture, particularly those that speak against sins in their own life, they are offended.
Going to church is easy. Following Jesus is hard. A shallow, anti-intellectual Christianity that ignores difficult swathes of the Bible may appeal to people initially. But in the end, it doesn't produce real disciples. The mark of a true Christian is one who believes and obeys even when it's costly; who is eager to understand and do the will of God, even when it challenges his preconceived ideas; who searches the Bible and believes and lives accordingly. These people are not perfect. But they are fundamentally submitted to the Lordship of Jesus and committed to change in belief or behaviour where they realize Scripture calls for it.
How can we, as individual Christians, avoid self-deceit and believing in our own version of God?
- Read the Bible regularly, all the way through. There are online plans that allow you to read the whole Bible in one year. I like the ESV Study Bible, which includes a portion from the Wisdom Literature, Old Testament history, prophets, and New Testament.
- Engage with what you read in Scripture. When you come across something challenging, seek answers. Ask mature Christians. Read Bible commentaries. Ask God for understanding. There's nothing wrong with questioning—that's the mark of robust faith. If you don't own it and haven't wrestled with it, it's not yours.
- Recognize that none of us have perfect understanding, and that we're more bound by our culture, experiences, and presuppositions than we think.
- Be humble and open. Where the Scriptures challenge your thinking or behaviour, be shaped by what they say. Don't twist Scripture to fit your personal inclinations. Be ruthlessly honest. Submit yourself to the Spirit of God for change, and grace to obey.
- Be in community. We all have blind spots. We are all prone to being deceived (Hebrews 10:24-25). We all need to be challenged in love by our brothers and sisters, and to hear other points of view.
These are just a few ideas; I welcome you to share yours in the comments!Comments: 0
Something I've come to realize recently is that a major characteristic of dysfunctional relationships is what I think of as “shame-throwing”. Shame-throwing is an effort, whether by anger, insults, accusations, shunning, or punishment, to try to make the other person feel bad about themselves. This might be to make them feel bad about who they are as a person, to feel shame or guilt for something you perceive they have done wrong, or to make yourself feel better by “dumping” your own internal shame on someone else and making them feel as bad as you do.
Shame-throwing takes place largely, I believe, when there's little to no trust between the members of the relationship. The person doing the shame-throwing doesn't trust the other to treat them kindly, fairly, or with respect, so he or she feels compelled to attack with whatever weapon they have on hand to fight for their rights and their territory.
The problem with shame-throwing, of course, is that it further erodes trust and destroys relationships. If both people engage in it, it results in a war with no end and/or a totally broken relationship.
The person on the receiving end of the shame-throwing may not actually be an untrustworthy person. He or she may actually be treating the shame-throwing person with kindness and respect. Because of past hurts in the shame-throwing person's life, they project those negative qualities onto the person they are doing battle with and feel they have to fight to get what they need and want. The irony is, of course, that those tactics don't actually work to achieve what the shame-throwing person wants and needs.
I grew up in a major shame-throwing environment. The constant fight was to make everyone else around you feel as bad as you did. Battles were fought which had no end and no purpose. Everyone was miserable. Nobody extended grace, kindness, or forgiveness to anyone else. It was a constant war that nobody won and everybody lost.
The result of that kind of upbringing is a constant, profound, debilitating sense of shame, guilt, and worthlessness as a person. Severe enough, it drives people to mental illness and suicide. It's a long story that wouldn't fit here to recount how I've moved from incredible darkness to a place of healing and hope.
Suffice to say, these days, I don't live in shame and guilt. The gospel of Jesus Christ has set me free from that. I recognize that in Jesus and through his death and resurrection, I have been completely forgiven. I am no longer under condemnation in Christ Jesus (Romans 8:1). It's a beautiful feeling! Even when I make a mistake and sin, I do not wallow in shame or guilt. I recognize that God's acceptance of me doesn't change and his love for me doesn't go away. This in turn frees me to recognize when I've done wrong, repent of it, seek to make it right, and seek change. But I understand I am not fundamentally rejected as a person. My acceptance in Christ frees me to seek to live like him, outside of the weight of condemnation and guilt.
Forgiveness is a huge factor in this. When someone tries to throw shame and guilt at me or “punish” me for something they perceive I've done wrong, recognition of God's forgiveness of me frees me to in turn forgive them and release me from the pain and anger of the shame-bomb.
Recently I've gone through a difficult situation with a person. I misguidedly attempted to speak into their life without the relational foundation to do so. It wasn't received well, unsurprisingly. Attempts to rectify the situation went south and negotiation proved impossible. The other person ended up cutting off relationship with me out of anger over a completely unrelated incident.
Suffice to say, I was feeling an incredible amount of hurt and anger over this. I'm much quicker these days to remember that the solution is forgiveness. I prayed and “tried” to forgive, and did feel some release, but heading to church the morning after the final discussion, I was still feeling hurt and angry. I was having the imaginary arguments with the person in my head that we have when we feel wronged and want to justify ourselves.
In church, we took the Lord's Supper. During the prior song, which was about Jesus' death on the cross, I was struck with a divine, grace-filled revelation. Jesus has completely forgiven me. His work on the cross left nothing lacking. He has paid for all my sins. I am completely accepted. There is no longer any condemnation for me in him. No matter who is angry with me about what, Jesus doesn't condemn me. The other person may never extend me grace. But I stand free in him.
In that instant, the realization of my own complete forgiveness freed me. I was able to instantly and completely forgive the other person. The weight of anger and pain lifted totally. I can't say that I'm not still grieved over the situation, but the toxic mixture of pain and shame has gone away.
I hope and pray for reconciliation with the other person. But in the meantime, I walk in freedom. I forgive them, and I don't carry the shame that was being thrown at me. This is what Jesus' work on the cross accomplished: forgiveness and freedom, and the grace and the power to be able to extend that same forgiveness and freedom to those who have hurt us. It's the most beautiful way to live!Comments: 0
Recently I watched the film Ida with a movie buddy. It's artistically an extremely beautiful film, perfectly shot in black and white.
The film tells the story of a young Polish novitiate nun who, on the verge of taking her vows, is told by her Mother Superior that she must first go and visit her only living relative, her Aunt Wanda. When she arrives, she receives the shocking revelation that she is actually a Jew and that her family was killed during the war. She and her aunt go on a journey to try to uncover the truth of how they died and where they are buried, and in the process, young Ida also discovers herself.
The aunt and the would-be nun are a study in contrasts. Jaded, cynical, and bitter, Wanda has a series of one-night stands, drinks too much, smokes incessantly, and mocks her niece's religious commitment. Ida wears the nun's habit, prays faithfully, and tries to keep her distance from her aunt, by whom she is clearly shocked. In one climactic scene, a drunken Wanda protests that her niece's Jesus “loved people like me” and that she feels judged by Ida.
But the niece's severe modesty soon proves to be a thin cover for more worldly desires. Liberated from the convent atmosphere, she eventually sheds her piety and religious rituals to embrace the vices she has seen in her aunt: drinking, smoking, and illicit sex. Will she continue on that way, or will she return to the convent and take her vows? The film leaves us in ambiguity.
This dynamic of the film was what struck me most strongly. It reflects the popular view that there are basically two ways to live: repressive, rigid, unthinking, judgemental religious morality; or a life of unbridled “freedom” that embraces following one's desires, whatever they might be. The film (and society at large) clearly favours the latter. Ida, who was brought up in the convent and knows nothing else, is “liberated” from the shackles of her religion to do whatever she pleases.
Those of us who have been in both camps often discover that neither is ultimately satisfying and that there is a third and better way to live.
This way of life involves discovering an allegiance to a Person who liberates us both from mechanical, formal religion offered from an empty heart; and from blind enslavement to our bodily desires which only bring emptiness and destruction in the end.
That Person's name is Jesus, and that liberation to follow him is exactly what he offered when here on earth, and still offers.
Jesus offered this way both to notorious sinners, and to the highly religious. However, he showed the most compassion to the “sinners”, because they were the ones most likely to recognize and admit their need. Blinded by their “goodness”, the religious people could not see their moral emptiness, their judgementalism, their lack of love, and their distance from God. The “sinners”, people like Wanda who did not hide their emptiness and pain and who knew they didn't have it together, were the ones who joyfully accepted Jesus' forgiveness and healing. As he himself said, those who have been forgiven much, love much.
Jesus offered a notorious social outcast, the woman of Samaria, the “living water” that would satisfy all her needs. She no longer needed to look to serial romantic relationships to try to fill the void. She, and so many others who met Jesus, went away changed. They discovered there was something far better than the things they had been using to try to numb their pain and give their lives meaning. They discovered Someone who loved them and who was worth living for and leaving those things behind.
Sadly, most of the religious leaders never recognized their need. They had too much to lose and nothing to gain, or so they thought. They were the ones who, as a whole, rejected Jesus and eventually crucified him.
Ida is caught between her dutiful commitment to her religion, and her natural desires to experience the pleasures of life. For her aunt, those pleasures become a trap which destroy her. Both of them are desperately in need of a third way: living, loving relationship with a Saviour whose grace and goodness are so compelling and unparalleled that they cause us to leave everything behind to follow him, whether our “thing” is duty-bound religion or unbridled hedonism. In this third way, obedience becomes a joyful offering of gratitude to the one who's liberated us from things we could not liberate ourselves and given us a life we couldn't have imagined.Comments: 0
One of the worst feelings in the world is that of being scammed or robbed. It's a sickening feeling of violation, betrayal, and helplessness, especially when the robbery is beyond the capability to recover. You fight to make things right, but your efforts are futile. The thief is never found. There's no proof. The item is gone. The person refuses to make things right.
I've recently had a few experiences of this nature, the frustration and futility of it reminding me that there is evil in the world, that people can't always be trusted, that despite your best efforts others don't always play by the rules and that there are some losses that can't be recovered. The best you can do is pick yourself up and move on, learning a lesson for another day, and being thankful the loss wasn't worse.
In Mexico last summer, I had my wallet stolen the first day I was there on a mission trip. The gullible, trusting Canadian, I left my bag unattended as I would here in Canada. Except it wasn't Canada. One of the poor, desperate, addicted men I had gone there to serve took the opportunity and filched it.
I was deeply thrown, extremely upset. For a few days I struggled to regain equilibrium. It felt like I'd been robbed of life itself. I'd gone trustingly into a situation many people had warned me was dangerous, and their predictions had been right. I was extremely angry at myself for being so careless, and even questioned whether I had made a mistake in going. I had come to serve and to be a blessing, and instead I had become a liability, the naive Canadian tripping thoughtlessly into a situation she knew nothing about.
Thank God he enabled me to recover; I remembered Jesus' words about our life not consisting of our possessions and his commands to forgive those who rob us. I came to a point where I was able to pray for the man who had robbed me. I was able to carry out the rest of my time in Mexico joyfully, and to continue to serve the men, including the one I suspected of being the thief. Faith in the Gospel buoyed me up in a dark situation.
More recently, I was scammed on Ebay. A kind friend gifted me his old DSLR camera, a newer and better model than the one I had. I rejoiced at this gift and immediately put the old camera on Ebay. I was especially thankful as it came during a time of unemployment; the sale of the old camera would provide a nice little boost to my personal finances. And then, I was expertly scammed by some of the typical tricks people use, which I was naive to. The buyer claimed not to have received the item, there was no proof either way, and I was forced to refund the price of the camera and the shipping. I lost my camera, and the money for it, effectively paying to gift some anonymous Vietnamese scammer with my beloved camera.
As I was thinking about it, I realized that this feeling is much the same as falling into a bad romantic relationship. You trustingly gift the person with your time, energy, affection, and love, believing that they are a good, trustworthy individual who will treat you honourably. Then the relationship ends and they do their best to wound you to the maximum extent possible. Then they decide to give up and run off with another person, with no more thought or care for you or the pain they've inflicted on you, completely reneging the promises they made to you. The pain is the same, except deeper, involving a loss far more precious than material possessions: your heart. You trusted them with your deepest feelings, your commitment, your body, your love, your time. When they leave, you're left with nothing, and worse than nothing: a nuclear-explosion-sized hole that can take months or years to heal and always leaves a scar.
This world is an evil place. There are people out there whose highest goal and motivation is their own gain, and who don't have scruples about lying, stealing, cheating, and violence to get what they want. We may assume that because we are committed to playing by the rules and being honest that others are the same; however, that's not a safe assumption to make. We sometimes learn that lesson at great cost. Often being honest, generous, and kind-hearted simply marks us out as an easy target.
What's the answer? I suppose one response would be to become hard-hearted and cynical. Certainly we need to be aware of the dangers and take appropriate measures to protect ourselves. But faced with a loss we didn't foresee and can't recover, what can we do?
If I didn't believe in a God of justice who sees, marks, and will punish injustice, I would despair, grow angry and bitter, and perhaps even stoop to the same sort of underhanded techniques to get what I want. There's no answer to the tears that fall in response to the evil of this world, except a God who cares. A God who will repay in kind, and from whom no evil ever finally escapes.
That's my hope, and why I can let these things go, forgive, and move on. That may take time and come at great cost, but it's the only way to freedom. It's also my hope for the greater injustices of the world, like a friend's sister who was murdered this week in Central America after wandering off her resort. The world weeps and groans under evil and violence. But there is a God who sees and does not forget, and according to my gospel there is a day coming when everyone will give account to him. That doesn't negate our efforts to fight injustice: instead, it ought to animate them. But it reminds us of where our ultimate hope lies.Comments: 0
(Full disclosure: I was sent a free copy of this book by the author to review)
Despite the title, this book isn't so much a “guide” as a very personal and devotional exploration of the author's own struggle with unwanted singleness in her mid-thirties. The author does not attempt to offer formulas or pat answers; her exploration of faith demolishes such attempts at false comfort.
The strengths of this book are twofold, in my opinion: first, allowing those who may be struggling with singleness the permission to grieve and to be honest about the difficulty of their situation and their negative feelings. Secondly, despite giving permission to grieve and to wrestle with God, Kate constantly directs the reader back to the place where she herself returns: trust and confidence in a God who loves her and whom she chooses to believe is working all things out for her good, despite not understanding why he doesn't grant her the deepest desire of her heart.
This book is extremely personal. Kate is very honest and open about her struggles and frustration. Much of the book consists of stories from her own life and her fight to trust God with disappointed expectation. This part of the book may be harder to relate to for those whose experience of singleness is different; however, what it does do is brilliantly highlight the author's beautiful heart of faith in God despite her circumstances. It's a lovely portrait of someone who has come to know God as good and to trust him deeply despite going through perhaps the deepest disappointment she could suffer. For that alone, the book is worth it, even for those who are not single.
Despite the author's honest exploration of her own pain, the tone is quite funny at times. A treat for me were the beautiful lyrics of Kate's songs scattered throughout. She enjoys a very intimate and loving relationship with God which admittedly I found myself envying. The candid tone makes her feel a bit like a big sister or a friend, someone you'd like to hang out with and talk about life.
Kate does offer a few chapters of advice in the middle of the book, most of which is sensible if not revolutionary. Many will find the chapter with advice from married people on how to prepare for marriage while you are single useful. I particularly appreciated the fact that she cautions readers against having overly-high expectations of marriage: i.e., believing that marriage will somehow be the answer to all of your problems and that you'll never struggle again.
The most useful pieces of advice for me were her chapters on giving yourself to others and living in intentional community. Kate rightly cautions that the independence of singleness can cause one to become self-focused and isolated, and calls us to the beauty of a life given up for others and lived with others.
The book ends (spoiler alert!) with a beautiful retelling of the love story throughout the ages between God and his people, and a look ahead to the day when the Bride of Christ is finally united with him forever. On that day, it won't matter whether we were married or single, parents or childless; all that will matter is that we are his. It's this perspective that allows us to walk through this life joyfully and bear the difficulty of living in a fallen world, whether for us that's singleness or something else.
There are a lot of Christian singles in our churches today. Increasingly, these are older, never-married Christian women in their 30s, 40s, or beyond. Statistics bear this out. The gender imbalance between men and women is great: in the US, church attendance is on average 61% female, 39% male; in the UK, acccording to a 2007 survey, 65% female, 35% male.
It's way beyond the scope of this blog to try to address why this gender gap exists, or how churches can fix it. It's simply enough to recognize that in our churches, there are large numbers of singles, mainly women. Often a glance around the congregation on a Sunday morning is enough to see this.
Given this gender gap, it's a statistical reality that many Christian women who desire marriage and children will not be able to achieve this, at least with a man who shares their faith. Many will wait years, only to remain disappointed. For the many for whom dating or marrying someone outside their faith is not an option, singleness may well be part of the cost of following Jesus.
God is, of course, capable of providing. I know several Christian women who found spouses in their 30s, 40s, and even 50s. Given the overall societal trend of later marriage, it's not surprising that this trend finds its way into the church as well.
However, how does the church love and minister well to those who are still waiting, those who may never marry, and those for whom singleness may be a calling (a nearly lost concept in the modern church?)
I've seen a few blog posts lately asking these questions, and as a 33-year-old single Christian women, here are some of my thoughts.
1. Stop telling people that they will find a spouse one day
People (usually married) who interact with singles and observe their frustration at not being married often react by assuring them that they are sure they will find someone one day. This is very well-meant and intended to comfort and encourage. However, I believe it is misguided.
No one has the ability to predict or promise that anyone will find a spouse. It's a very human reaction to want to respond to someone's suffering by offering hope. But it has the effect of denying the person's struggle in the here and now, and it's something God hasn't guaranteed. It also overlooks the fact that some percentage of singles are so by desire or calling. Instead of whitewashing someone's struggle by making unfounded promises, how about walking with them through it? How about learning what it might be like for them to live in the wait, and how you can support and love them?
As Christians, we have faith in God. We believe he does miracles, and that he provides for his children. But we also know that we live in a fallen world where suffering and sin are all-too-present realities. Let's mourn with those who mourn and realistically acknowledge the brokenness of this world and how it affects us (not just singleness). Let's grant one another the gift to be real about hard things without offering magical, brush-it-away answers. Let's be honest about the fact that following Jesus involves real cost, and may well involve the cost of singleness.
2. Don't assume you know why someone is single, or how they feel about it
There are a myriad of reasons why someone might be single and a myriad of reactions, from chosen singleness to people who are desperate for a spouse and children. As with any other life circumstance, singles and their reasons for being so and their feelings about it are many-faceted.
Some “hidden” reasons people may be single are mental illness, the fallout of past abuse, or same-sex attraction. Some may be single after an unwanted divorce. Some suffer the pain of unfulfilled longings for parenthood, whereas for others this is not a factor at all. Some singles are parents. To love and minister well to singles, get to know them. Look past superficiality and seek to understand the underlying realities.
3. Don't offer “helpful” advice about how not to be single
I've heard as much bad advice about how to find someone in the church as I have outside of it, and unfortunately, these answers are often exactly the same in the church as outside (with some added God-dust). I once had someone tell me that when you stop looking, you find someone. This was a person who decided to stop dating when he was about 20 years old, and the same day literally had his future wife turn up on his doorstep. At the time he told me this, they'd been married for about 10 years. I was 30 and single and had never looked for someone.
The wrong thinking behind this is that there is a fixed order to the universe such that if you put the right results in, you get the right results out. If you are getting the wrong results, there must be something you can do to fix it. As Christians, we should know better. See the book of Job.
Your situation, how God worked in your life, someone else's situation, received wisdom you've heard: none of this is a magic formula for finding a spouse. And it's extremely discouraging for someone who has tried the things you suggest and remains single. As with not assuming you know why someone is single or how they feel about it, don't assume you can offer them advice about dating, even if it worked for you.
If you have a foundation of real relationship with this person and they ask for advice, then tactfully offer suggestions. Please do not present it as the God-ordained way they will find a spouse. You can say “this worked for me” or “this worked for friends of mine”, but do not present it as a guaranteed formula. I'm looking at you, internet dating.
Present your story as just that, a story. Everyone's prone to thinking that their experience is somehow normative. Your story is what happened to you. It is not a life guide for every single person who wants to be married.
4. Churches: stop treating singles only as not-yet-married people
A huge amount of advice I hear or read on singleness, especially from married people, assumes that all singles want to be married and will be married one day. Thus, it speaks to them as potential married people and treats heavily on topics like dating, abstaining from sex, preparing yourself emotionally for marriage, healing from past wounds so you can be a better spouse. All of it is focused on the goal of someday-marriage, assuming that for all singles that is a reality.
As singles, we are so much more than potential married people, who are “on hold” before we get to real life. Also, some of us don't want to get married, have chosen to remain single, or simply won't get married despite our desire. Stop assuming that you know what all singles want, and that it is marriage. Stop aiming all advice to singles at finding or preparing for a spouse, as if that was all that was on our minds.
Married pastors, if you are going to preach or write to singles, how about talking to a wide variety of them, from all ages and stages of life, to find out what their needs and perspectives are? It is very different to be single at 30-something than 20-something. It is yet different again in the 40s and 50s and beyond.
And please: acknowledge that it is a valid calling for many Christians to remain single. There is not necessarily something “wrong” with someone who doesn't want or seek marriage.
5. Do relationships and life together better
I believe the answer to singleness is relationship within the body of Christ. I believe the church is meant to function as a family, which knows each other, loves each other, spends time together, does life together, prays together, holds each other accountable, ministers together, has fun together.
This is about so much more than Sunday morning meetings and Wednesday night bible studies. This is about a culture of relationship which values depth and honesty. This is NOT about groups or social events for singles, although that could be part of it. I've been in churches where there was lots of social activity but little real relationship.
Relationship involves a willingness for things to be messy and vulnerable and broken. It means knowing what's really going on in one another's lives. Allowing others to be their real selves, and being our real selves in return. An understanding of the gospel that acknowledges the presence of sin, the power of grace, and the cleansing of confession. A church culture that is not about keeping up appearances, but which is committed to knowing and loving one another exactly where we are. Confessing sin to one another, praying for one another, counselling one another, holding one another accountable, speaking about what we've learned from God's word, doing life together. Our church friends should be people who matter to us during the week. When these things are in place, real community happens, and most of the loneliness of singleness is mitigated.
I believe that this culture of community is why singleness was such a valid possibility in the early church. Nowadays we expect one relationship, marriage, to meet all or most of our relational needs. This is a relatively modern construct. Earlier societies, including that of the New Testament church, and many non-Western societies today, recognize the value of an inter-connected web of relationships that are just as valuable as marriage. The church can and should be that family to those who don't have a biological one.
Hospitality is a huge part of this. There are many encouragements to hospitality in the New Testament and opening your home can be a great blessing to those who don't have families. Everyone is looking for a place to belong, a place to be comfortable, a place to connect with people who care about them. If you are married or single, and you have a home you can offer, please extend this gift to others. You will be blessed more than you will be inconvenienced by the broken vase or the dirty dishes.
6. Restore singleness to the honoured place it has in the New Testament and the early church; develop a theology of singleness that honours this life position as much as marriage
I'm not sure where the switch happened, but although the NT exalts the value of singleness, we've gone completely the opposite way and exalted marriage to the highest place in the church. It is viewed as the norm and the apex of the Christian life. Singles are viewed as not-yet-arrived, second-class citizens, married-people-in-waiting, not fully capable of maturity, wisdom, leadership, or authority. It's assumed you'll get married, unless there's something wrong with you. This, despite the Founder of our faith (Jesus) and the most influential apostle (Paul) being single.
1 Corinthians 7 actually indicates that Paul views singleness as desirable and to be maintained if you can handle it, as it offers unique benefits for wholeheartedly serving the Lord. Marriage is a concession to our humanity and the reality of sexual desire. I believe the reason Paul, and the early church, had this attitude is that they were far more keenly aware of eternity and spiritual reality than we are.
This is what I mean, brothers: the appointed time has grown very short. From now on, let those who have wives live as though they had none, and those who mourn as though they were not mourning, and those who rejoice as though they were not rejoicing, and those who buy as though they had no goods, and those who deal with the world as though they had no dealings with it. For the present form of this world is passing away. (1 Cor 7:29-31)
In light of the kingdom of God, the shortness of life, and eternity, marriage and other earthly realities do not hold the importance that we place on them. As a single person, my singleness is only for this life, as is a married person's marriage. The supreme reality of my life, as a follower of Jesus, is my relationship with him and an eternity where marriage won't exist. The supreme question of my life will not be whether or not I was married. It will be whether I made the best use of what he entrusted to me and if I faithfully and lovingly followed him.
It's time we restored this focus to the church. The biological family, as important and precious as it is, should not be our main focus. Instead, the new family that Jesus created when he died and rose again and put his Spirit within believers will become our focus. In that family, there is no such thing as superiority or inferiority based on marital status or any other factor. There are only equally valuable people following Jesus in different life situations.
Single people are whole in Christ; we are not half-people waiting for a spouse. Many of us have much wisdom, maturity, insight, and godliness to offer. Many of us are gifted in areas of leadership, teaching, and evangelism. Instead of relegating us to singles' groups (something I see as completely unbiblical), why not seek out what we have to offer and put us in positions of ministry in the church? And I don't just mean “singles-appropriate” ministry.
No church would state that they value singles less than they value married people. However, the real value you place on people can be estimated by the extent to which you include them and entrust them with responsibility. If you are excluding singles (or any other group) from leadership, decision-making, social events, and the “inner circle” of the church, you are stating loud and clear that you do not value them as you do married people.
Relationship and purpose: these are what everyone craves, and finding these in the church is what enables Christian singles to live full and satisfying lives, and avoid the temptation to compromise by meeting these needs in other ways. If we did these things well, much of the burden of singleness that many carry would be completely lifted.Comments: 3
One of the major issues with shame is that it blocks the essential process of recognizing and repenting of sin. This may seem counter-intuitive. Shame-filled people feel bad about themselves and feel they do wrong all the time. Shouldn't they be overly sensitive about their sin?
The answer is no. At least, not in the right way.
One of the strange effects of shame is that it blocks the normal process of recognizing and making it right when you've done something wrong. The reason for that is that the shame-filled person is already so overwhelmed with feeling bad about him or herself, that he or she blocks out the feeling of “badness”. They can't admit they've done wrong because it would simply be too much. They have no confidence of being forgiven, no safe base to come back to from the devastating feeling of having messed up.
Shame leads to a broken and wildly inaccurate “guilt meter”. Shame-filled people feel disproportionately bad for things that are not wrong or not their fault. They feel guilty for making anyone feel bad about anything, and are incapable of setting appropriate boundaries because of their fear of making anyone displeased with them.
On the other hand, they are often incapable of recognizing the very real faults or flaws that they should seek to change. Or if they do, they beat themselves up for them and feel even more shame. The knowledge of their guilt drives them further into the darkness, instead of toward the God of love who will forgive and help them change. If you're certain you'll only be condemned, why would you admit fault?
Shame-filled people are stuck. They are unable to make any real progress toward self-improvement or in Christian terms, sanctification. They are bogged down at the side of the road with four flat tires.
Being able to recognize a wrong you have done, feel healthily sorry for it (as opposed to feeling bad and worthless as a person), and take steps to change it (in biblical terms, repentance) requires a certainty that you are loved and accepted. Shame-filled people can't do this because for them, it would be like falling off the map. If you're already banished to the edges of the world by your inherent badness and can't earn your way back, acknowledging that you've done something wrong would be to fall off into the abyss of darkness. It's too costly.
By contrast, when you understand that you are loved and accepted and that there is nothing you can do to change that, this frees you to be able to recognize behaviours, patterns or attitudes in yourself that aren't good, admit those to God and to appropriate caring people, ask for forgiveness and grace to change, and take the appropriate steps. It's like putting air in those four flat tires so you can continue driving down the road. Without it, you can't even start.
This is why a proper understanding of who God is, is so essential. He can be trusted. He is not capricious, fault-finding, unjust, angry. He is who he said he is and does what he says he will do. He is exactly the same today as he has always been, and as he was when he wrote Scripture. When he says he forgives, he means he forgives. When he says he casts all our sins into the depths of the sea, he means it. When he says, “If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness” (1 John 1:9) it's because he does just exactly that. He's not secretly angry and disapproving. He doesn't cast us away when we sin. That's a legacy from a distorted past that gives us a false understanding of a God who has no imperfection.
If you're dealing with someone who suffers from shame, it's essential to be extremely careful about how you address behavioural change. It's very difficult for a shame-drowned person to receive even loving correction. When a shame-filled person is told “You did something wrong” he or she hears “You're a bad person who is not accepted.” Rather than simply addressing the symptom (the behaviour) seek to address the underlying problem (the person's sense of worthlessness and need to understand they are loved). It's essential for all of us to be able to access the normal sin/guilt/repentance/change process. But for a shame-filled person, an integral foundation of love and acceptance, by both God and those in her faith community, must be laid before she can do this. Always, always, always, call for change out of this foundation of unconditional acceptance, because that is how God changes us. We don't grow to earn his acceptance; we grow because we have already received it.Comments: 0