What have the two to do with each other, you ask?

Well, I've been experiencing excessive amounts of both recently. Actually the unemployment has lasted over a month and a half, but the snot is a recent development.

I am a positive river of snot. I have never seen a human being produce such copious amounts of the stuff. I've been decimating Kleenex at prodigious rates, about one every second. I think I will be responsible for its extinction soon. The outer skin cells of my nose have long ago said goodbye.

And the unemployment...well, let's just say that I thought I'd gotten "trusting God" down. I thought I'd learned not to judge his love for me by circumstances, to keep worshipping no matter what. But as the weeks drag on and no job is in sight, and employment agencies keep stringing me along with future possibilities, it gets progressively more discouraging and debilitating.

And I've been getting angry at God. Joblessness can't be a good thing, in any sense. I've given my life to God, so why don't things work out a little more smoothly? Once in a while?

Last night, I spent the better part of an hour moaning to my friend Margaret. In her wise and faithful fashion, she continued to urge me to trust God. And though it wasn't the answer I wanted to hear, I knew she was right.

Despite my faithlessness, God came through. Today, a company I've freelanced for in the past called. They have enough work to keep me very, very busy for a long time, and are sending a wire transfer for an amount that will easily take care of me for a while.

I don't know why I can't just trust and be done with it. It'd be a lot less stressful. God's never let me down in the past. I don't think he's going to start now or at any point in the future. And though I'd sometimes prefer the certainty of regular employment, I have to trust for that too. Oh, me of little faith...